As I’m sure you’ve noticed, my presence here on the blog is far from what it used to be. Less than two years ago, I was able to keep up with writing and responding to five blog posts per week. That was pre-child. Since little man was born, I’ve tried my best to keep up with three blog posts per week. Most of the time when he was an infant I was able to keep up, but as he’s gotten older and more active, its become increasingly difficult to find enough time for it, especially while also balancing the demands of being a full time teacher and a wife to my husband.
I have found it even more difficult since the start of this school year to keep up with my blogging. Part of my responsibilities as a teacher includes teaching an Advanced Placement course, which adds to the amount of time that it takes for me to grade assignments. This is my tenth year teaching, my fifth teaching AP, and this school year for multiple reasons has been more taxing on me than recent years have been. I leave work more mentally and physically exhausted than I have for the past couple of years.
As of this semester my husband is also in grad school, which has added more responsibility for little man to my plate. While I love my son, the amount of time and effort that it takes to chase an almost two year old around makes for one exhausted mommy, especially on the nights when its just myself and little man.
The point of all this rambling is that something has needed to give. One of my goals for November is to find a better life-work balance. Despite my best efforts and intentions, I cannot do everything. One thing that I think will help me find a more healthy life balance is to eliminate the pressure on myself for routine blogging. I am so incredibly thankful for all of the opportunities that this blog has afforded me, especially the networking and people that I have connected with online. However, as many of you know, blogging takes a lot of time and work, and time is something that I just don’t have a lot of right now. I think that eliminating the pressure to blog X number of times per week will help me right now. I know that this goes against all of the advice that I have provided about growing a blog, but focusing on your own needs is sometimes more important.
Blogging used to be one of the things that I looked forward to most each day, but often times now I see it as a chore. Many evenings after getting little man to bed I would much rather go to bed myself instead of sitting down at the computer to write. It has caused me to get behind on many scheduled blog posts. Last week I finally wrote one of my September race recaps, and I still have another one to write. I have a couple of product reviews that are currently sitting on my calendar, but I keep pushing the date back on because I just don’t have it in me to focus on writing them. I’m hopeful that if I eliminate the pressure on myself that I need to blog X number of times per week that I’ll eventually find the joy in blogging again that I once had. Right now it feels more like work than anything else.
Is cutting back on blogging going to instantly make finding a healthier life balance possible? Of course not. But I think that for me at this point it will certainly help. This rambling is far from a “I’m leaving blogging entirely” but more so putting down in words how I’ve been feeling. And now that its in writing, I almost feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I have felt so guilty about not blogging regularly, but hopefully I’ll start to see that guilt fade away now.
QOTD: How do you find a healthy life balance?