On Mondays (or Tuesdays if I haven’t been able to write a Monday post) for as long as I can remember, I’ve shared my weekly training log on here. My writing a weekly training log has been my main way to hold myself accountable for my training, so that I’ve been able to keep myself on track.
Last Monday and today have been exceptions to that norm. As I’ve briefly shared in a couple of posts over the past two weeks, I’ve slowed down significantly in terms of my physical activity. The exhaustion of the third trimester has definitely set in, and its becoming more and more difficult for me to physically keep up with what my mind wants me to be able to do, especially now that I’m 34.5 weeks pregnant.
The reality is that its too painful to run right now. The reality is that my baby belly has grown to the point that I can’t exercise the way that I want to. The reality is that I’m slowing down, and whether I like it or not, cannot exercise as consistently as I’d like to.
Its been a hard reality for me to face. Mentally, I’m geared up and ready to try and maintain the same fitness levels that I was pre-pregnancy. And this has been a very difficult obstacle to overcome. They say running, and working out in general, is just as much mental and as it is physical. And boy is that true. But the reality is that my body just cannot keep up with what my mind and heart desire to be able to do.
The reality is that I’m struggling to find a balance right now. The stress of work is taking its toll on me, and I’ve started to face complications with my pregnancy that haven’t been fun to deal with. Among other issues, the week after Rock ‘n’ Roll Philly I found out that I’ve developed pelvic synthesis separation. My OB assures me that there’s nothing I’ve done to cause this, and that there’s nothing I could have done to prevent it, but of course, now I get to face the reality of dealing with it. Some days I’m in more pain than others, and unfortunately, there’s not much that can be done medically in order to help me manage the pain. Thankfully, neither my health or the baby’s health is in jeopardy, but nonetheless, its still not fun to deal with the chronic pain.
Does this mean that I’m giving up working out altogether? Absolutely not. But I’ve had to make several modifications. My OB has suggested that I limit myself to only low impact exercise for the remainder of my pregnancy, and that if it feels like exercise is making the pain worse, then I need to stop. The other big adjustment that I’ve had to make has been to the frequency and duration of my workouts. There are many days now that I come home from work and I’m just too exhausted to head to the gym. I’m trying to embrace these changes as best as I can, and am trying to accept that if going for a walk is all that my body can handle then so be it.
As I’m facing this reality, I’m trying to remind myself that I haven’t failed. Despite how difficult its been to accept this reality, the fact is that my body just can’t keep up with my mind right now. And that doesn’t make me a failure. The reality is that circumstances have temporarily changed, and adjustments have needed to be made.
QOTD: What realities have you recently had to face?